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sigh what part of you're going to fucking process shit with art help and like reflect upon your life after reading and responding to zuzu's message leaving you vulnerable as shit till you decide to just lay out the fundamental reason why you think you deserve punishment. but like apparently all you can do is wrong is find fault with yourself because that was so arrogant and you know its like people will say you made peace with them but they didnt with you and perhaps you're just exploiting them as victims because your apology can't be genuine and people is me and I'm overthinking it. I'm not an awful person I'm not static I change ! but now I'm sounding like someone making excuses and fuck fuck fuck why can't I stop myself from thinking I feel fake !!!!!! this is why you should not stay up but then it's because of her that classmate that made you paranoid! so you decide to open up dms and reply ! but ! but it's awful and now you're centering yourself as always !! fuck fuck fuck fuck