mizu5
hi blog that i havent touched since actual human existence with friends was a thing. anyways enough lament, still thinking about that mizu5 essay discovered on the queer video essay kick &&& gods they were able to say what I felt was there, just without words to express it. "to be accepted because of kindness and not because you actually believe it" gods. my whole life. tart exaggeration except with J, I can completely believe it with J when it/he (prn?) tells me that. idk I just am I punishing myself or J? I don't know I can't think of it anymore it's ridiculous that one cab deserve a person like that one has to let them go because idk you know special things don't deserve to be dragged down. taint and destroy in the depths of murkiness. fck. anyways mizu5 I don't know project sekai never rlly cared but holy shit being distant being apart never trusting afraid gods such a complex character such a complicated and so so so human trans character. gods to have a story that articulates that. gods.